Have you ever had one of those days when all you can muster up the energy to do is get to the couch to turn on Netflix and binge watch on your favorite TV series? That was me yesterday. It was an all day pajama party with Oreos and my cat. For some inexplicable reason, I could not make myself do a single productive thing. I had an amazing weekend filled with art, friends and football. I even made a dessert dip that looked like the Pinterest picture so I truly didn’t understand why I was so glum.
Then it happened, I started my period. It was three days early and (being on the pill) I wasn’t anticipating it at all. I have felt “off” all month and chalked it up to the massive amounts of changes that are going on in my life right now. Anyone would be stressed or depressed in the same circumstances right? But was it depression or hormones? Or do the two go hand in hand?
Last week when I had to go back to the eye doctor, again, he told me I had dry patches on my cornea. The most common cause: Changes in hormones. So I started looking even closer at what my body has been doing this past month. I have been spotting for weeks, again being on the same birth control for years now, this is not normal. Could this be the cause of my feelings of depression?
Women are shamed when they talk about their hormones and menstrual cycle, but why? The fact that a woman can conceive and carry a child is incredible. Every month a woman’s body prepares to start the stages of bringing life into this world. Our bodies’ work for weeks then in a matter of 5-7 days everything our body has prepared for sheds and it has to start all over again. Sorry men, but PMS is a very real thing with chemical side effects.
So, what are my next steps? I am either going to 1. Change birth control 2. Go off birth control, and/or 3. Meet with a hormonal specialist. This getting older thing really is a challenge. Why was I in such a rush to grow up?