Four-Eyed Frustration

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For well over a month now, I have been having eye issues.  It started as a double eye infection and has just continued to get worse.  I have been reduced to having to wear my glasses almost exclusively.  The other day, I could barely drive because the light was affecting me so badly.

I’ve worn glasses since the first grade and contacts since the 6th, so why am I having this issue now?  This got me to thinking… Is there a point where your body just turns against you? In the past few months I have had to add an iron supplement and Metamucil to my daily regiment on top of my daily vitamin.  This is to help with exhaustion and gastro problems.  I also have a theory that my liver needs a little boost (an accident in high school injured it and I have had health issues ever since). With that I am adding two additional supplements to the mix:

  • Turmeric – a plant that is the main spice in curry.  It’s used to treat many ailments including: stomach pain, diarrhea, stomach bloating, loss of appetite, liver problems and gallbladder disorders.It is also used for headaches, bronchitis, colds, lung infections, fibromyalgia, fever, menstrual problems, and cancer. Basically a cure-all.
  • Milk Thistle: (silymarin) – a flowering herb related to the daisy. In addition to helping with liver problems, it is also used to reduce cholesterol and is a natural anti-inflammatory and antioxidant.

Once I get my eyes back and these herbs kick in, I will be ready to conquer the world (or at least be able to drive safely).  Small steps.




I Have A Dream…

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You can’t celebrate MLK Day without stopping for a moment and thinking about dreams.  Everyone has them. Sometimes they seem so big that you don’t even know where to begin, but Martin Luther King Jr. tells us “Take the first step in faith, you don’t have to see the whole staircase, just take the first step.”  That is a lesson I need to remember on more than just one day a year because I can get so analytical about what the precise right move is, I become frozen.

During my reflection, I remembered some of my own dreams (big and small) including: LGBT equality, Veterans getting the help they need after serving our country, owning seven houses around the world, competing in an amateur ballroom dance contest, and being able to create my own music. This last one, I know I can take into my own hands immediately.

There is something magical about being completely immersed in a melody and getting swept away by it.  Beginning in elementary school, I played the violin, viola, piano, and was in choir.  Despite my parents’ nagging encouragement for me to practice the musical instruments, I couldn’t quite get over wanting to watch TV instead (silly youth).   I stuck specifically with singing and abandoned the stringed instruments. At the time, it was probably the right decision, but now I have to depend on other people or tracks to just play around.  Hating to ask for help, I loathe this.  I’ve decided this year that is going to change.  I have officially bought my first guitar.  So far I have learned exactly one chord and a scale progression.

Now I don’t expect to be the next T-Swift, but I am looking forward to coming to a campfire near you.

Finding My 30’s

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Happy New Year! In precisely 2 Months and 2 Days, I will be turning 30.  I think for most women this is a monumental mark in their lives, and I am no exception.  I did not think I would be 29, not married (or even close), out of shape, laid-off with no clue where I want to go with my career, and the closest thing I have to a kid is my cat. Basically: Lost.

After talking with my friends, my hairdresser and even strangers, I have figured out I’m not alone in this feeling.  Despite what TV, movies and magazines tell you, not everyone has their lives figured out by this point. Growing up in the Midwest, I was sure I would be married at 28 (later than average because I’m a little bit of a rebel), have my first child at 30 and second at 32.  Since that timeline has come and went, it’s time to start a new one.

In the upcoming months, I am going to try new things, learn new skills, workout and hopefully find myself in the process.  Join me in a very honest look at the road to Finding My 30’s.


– Suzanne